Catch up

Whew. I feel like we are constantly playing catch up at our house lately! I keep wondering if it's ever going to change?! 

-Scott's in full time school

-..and he has a job where he's gone 3 nights a week

-I am currently working two jobs, (1 day and 1 night job) which together total about 50 hrs a week

-We are full time parents to the cutest boy in the world

Sometimes I wonder if we are ever going to have "normal" lives where we ever see each other!

Some days are easier than others... But today I just want to feel bad for myself. I miss my husband, I miss being with my baby all the time... And I think it's safe to say that Scott and I are pretty worn out.

I don't know what I would change, to be honest. I think the only thing that can change is my attitude.  We both know that we are doing the best we can. But sometimes, it's frustrating. And it's pretty safe to say that it's hard feeling like single parents. 

It's hard when (with a couple half days during the week), our only interactions happen at when we are sleeping, or via phone calls and texting.

I still can't get past feeling like the guilty parent for not being there for Kaiser more often. I keep telling myself and him that it is for his benefit that we are working so hard. But it doesn't make it easier, really.

I'm excited for summer to come, when we can get rid of one of the things in our lives--Scott's SCHOOL! Yay! I'm glad for him to be done soon...for the time being.