I'm a lucky gal

It is Sunday afternoon and I am alone in my apartment just pondering and thinking about well...kinda everything.  But today I have this overwhelming sense of gratitude.  Today, I am very thankful for where I am at in my life right now. 

First of all, school is over for the semester--I graduate on Thursday!  I never thought this day would come.  I remember being so nervous to start graduate school and to be honest, I kinda wanted to back out and not even go in the first place.  I have this problem of always doubting my abilities.  But I survived and I did it with flying colors :)  

But that's not the main point of this post.  The point of this post is how lucky I am to have such great family, friends, and the sweetest, greatest, and most wonderful husband.  I don't know where I would be in life if it wasn't for them.

I am so lucky to have great people in my life.  I love that even though we live in SLC, my family is still so supportive and makes such a huge effort to be around us when we come up.  I have learned so many new things from them and it helps me be a better wife and friend.  I love that my friends are so willing to drive down and spend a day with me when girl time is much needed :) I am thankful for phone calls or texts from friends and family far away when we can't get together.  I seriously have the best family and friends in the world and I love all of you so much!

I am so grateful for a husband who pushes me to become better.  Without him, I don't know where i would be today.  He has been so supportive of me and what I want to achieve, so much that he was willing to leave his home in Logan and move to SLC to start new jobs, new school, and a new life together!  I am so thankful for the hard worker that he is.  I feel so guilty when he wakes up early to go to work and works all day, especially on the weekends--He is an amazing provider for our family.  I can't count the number of times he lifts me up when I'm feeling down, or makes me laugh when I am sad or comforts me when I am stressed out.  He is the person I lean on for everything and I know that can't always be easy for him but he never shows it.  He just smiles and loves me more.  

So, YAY for amazing people in my life.  I love you all :)

I know i'm a sap, just love me.

Bluuuuuuuuurg

Today my head is full of a bunch of mumbo jumbo.  I don't really know how to explain how I'm feeling, so this post might be confusing to read, but I want to get it out of my head.

We all have trials.  Some people's seem more threatening, and life-changing than others.  Some people might have trials that seem insignificant to others.

The trial that I am referring to is one that has been present in my life for quite some time and quite frankly, I am getting really tired of it and wish it would just go away already.  

It is making me think that there is something wrong with me as a person.

It is adding so much unnecessary stress in my life and as each day passes, the severity of it's presence in my life grows.

I hate worrying.

I hate feeling inadequate.

I don't know how to fix it.

Hopefully sometime in the VERY near future, I can squash this trial that I am having right in the A$$ and never worry about it again.